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Character Bleed...

15 Aug 2024

Hi,

My name is Jaida Corvera. If you are someone who knows me, you're probably thinking "Of course you are.". I'm not doing this for your sake, reader. I'm doing this for mine. Last night, I entered some of the worst character bleed I have ever encountered about myself. As a Plural System, this could be a far more dangerous spiral to be down on. The bleed was onset at about 23:30 GMT-5 and lasted six hours. It felt like I was tearing myself apart. Like a near splinter about to happen. I tried to spend hours laying still and just relaxing, attempting to just be still to let it pass by. Unfortunately, it took a shower and a visual confirmation that I still exist to end it.

So... where does this put me. I'm currently writing this as more of a reminder to myself on what to do. The goal is to attempt to return to a normal level of calm. Here is a list.

Grounding

There are numerous ways to do so, my favorite is the 5-4-3-2-1 method. This allows you to use your senses to verify the world around you.

Visual Inspection

Sometimes, you just need to look and touch at yourself and reassert who you are.

Establish a musical playlist of your favorite music (Rei)

Thank you Rei. Music is powerful. Sometimes hearing a familiar tune can start that process to grapple back onto your identity.

That's all I got right now. If I have more, I'll make a new post.

— Jaida